Finally we saw her and it was very uncomfortable but exciting. I remember I couldnʼt stop staring at her belly. I loved being close to my son. She had a difficult labor and it lasted three days. Poor girl. I stayed with her the whole time, she really didnʼt have anyone else who would do that for her. It was precious time God gave me with her. I got to know her story better and grew to love her more.
In a world where abortion is pushed and encouraged, I hold birth moms in very high regard for making the seemingly harder choice for a life.
I know people are so scared of the power birth moms have but what I realized is that you donʼt choose adoption because you have other options. Usually adoption is the only choice they have. In a world where abortion is pushed and encouraged, I hold birth moms in very high regard for making the seemingly harder choice for a life. If you ever meet a birth mom, honor her like crazy for this. These women give the highest form of love by laying down their life for their child. I cannot honor them enough.
Finally Noah was born, oh my goodness, and my heart was overwhelmed with love for this little orange fuzzy haired baby boy. He had this little squished nose and was so vulnerable. I remember being torn between the pain in the eyes of his birth mom and my overwhelming love for him. It’s a crazy mix of emotions. I sat in the hospital room that they gave us and just held my baby. My love for Noah was exactly the same as for my son Jude, who grew in my belly, I felt his first kick, and I got to love him for nine months before seeing him. It was still, at that point, uncertain if he would be my son but I loved him the same.
My husband and I risked everything to love Noah. We risked our hearts, our money, and our future. It was then that God spoke to me and said, “I did the same for you.” He risked everything for us. His Son, his future, his world, his heart and we still can choose to reject Him. He looked at us and loved us the same and His son. The son that he knew from the beginning of time, the son who he made all decisions with, the son who had his DNA. He loves us the same!
It says in Romans 8: 14-17:
For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, “Abba! Father!” The Spirit himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him.
All the things promised to Jesus are promised to us too. How amazing is that?! God loved us and chose us before we were even able to choose him back. In a similar way, my husband and I chose Noah before he was able to choose us back.
I love that God gives us earthly examples of heavenly things so that we can understand them on a heart level. For example, marriage is an earthly example of Christ and the church. He is so good to us. I feel it is an honor and privilege to experience adoption on an earthly level and I am so thankful to be called to this.
If you feel called to adoption I would encourage you to make steps toward it and see if God opens the doors. If he does and you get the honor of adopting, it is a secret treasure God gives for you to see his heart for you.
We have recently adopted again—a beautiful daughter named Violet. My children have brought so much joy to my life and I feel eternally blessed to be their mother.
Some names changed for privacy purposes.